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Tuesday, March 27th, 2007
3:02 pm	Can someone go on my myspace for me so it doesn't get erased? Current Mood: chipper
1Didnt even know him -x- Wrecked him?
Friday, March 23rd, 2007
1:35 pm	I don't know if anyone even uses livejournal anymore, but I can't get on myspace so this is all I can do. Right now I'm in a placement called Don Bosco. That means I live there and have to do all this shit so I can go home. Im probably going to be in here for 5-6 months. Its horrible, I'm just so depressed about the fact that I fucked up again. Im missing everything, prom, graduation, all that shit just because I didnt want to do something for my PO. Im just so full of regrets it's almost overwhelming. The only good thing about this place is that I get to go to school on the outside, (a place called Lifeskills, thats where I'm doing this at), and I think I can graduate on time. I just hope everything turns out all right and that everyone's still going to be around when I get back. But Im going to update this thing every now and again to let everyone know whats going on, if anyone still cares. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Nothing
2Didnt even know hims -x- Wrecked him?
Sunday, January 14th, 2007
3:07 pm	Who the hell uses livejournal anymore? Current Mood: sick Current Music: Europe- The Final Countdown
1Didnt even know him -x- Wrecked him?
Sunday, September 3rd, 2006
8:43 pm	Fuck everyone Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Slayer- Angel of Death
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Thursday, August 31st, 2006
1:27 am	It's been a couple of weeks since I got back and nothing has at all been happening. I have to go to like 6 meetings a week for my probation and take drug tests every week. The drug tests dont bother me but all of those meetings are quite inconvenient. People are all still the same, which is disapointing in some ways. Everything is the way I thought it would be, but I dont really mind as much as I thought I would. Probably because I've been drinking heavily these last weeks. I think I'm even more of a loser than I was before. Nowadays I sit around and try to find pot and wait for it, and I dont even fucking smoke the shit! I just have nothing better to do and the people I hang out with that smoke are really the only ones who give two shits. Yeah, but thats all thats been going on here, though. Current Mood: restless Current Music: none
1Didnt even know him -x- Wrecked him?
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
9:41 pm	I finally got out on the 11th. Its been four months and it just feels good as hell to be out in the world. I found out I can't go back to the high school, which is rather disappointing. I guess since I got kicked out I can't go back and even if I could they wouldn't accept the credits I got in rehab. Oh well, it's only one year. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Between the Buried and Me- The Need For Repition
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Sunday, August 6th, 2006
4:15 pm	I was looking at all my old entries and they were all rather bitchy. Everyday I bitched about how bad my life was and how no one liked me. I spent tenth and eleventh grade feeling sorry for myself. I just hope that things will be better this year. Something thats really been bothering me is the fact that Nick is moving. Me and him have been friends for the longest time and I might not even get to say bye to him. Thats horrible that people grow apart as they grow older, but oh well, it's a part of life. If anyone has his number, can you leave it in a comment so I can possibly say goodbye to him. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Lou Reed-Perfect Day
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Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
12:46 am	I pretty much got fucked over. This kid in rehab tried to hit me and when I defended myself I got my release date changed to August 11th. That fucking sucks. I miss everything about being home so much. I've had so much on my mind. It really just hit me that high school is basically over. This is my last year and I have to say Im pretty fucking afraid. I dont know what to do. I have a choice to make it's either go to Riley for my last year or APHS. I have strong feelings for both. I kind of feel obliged to go back to Riley. I feel as though I've kind of grown attached to it. But on the other hand I want to go back to APHS for a good diploma and I want to get back in touch with all of the people I used to hang out with and care about before I started getting fucked up. The thing is it's probably to late and everyone has lifes now and I'm pretty sure none of them give two shits if I want to come back into their lifes. It's to late for all of that shit.I just wish people would give me a second chance but everyone's moved on and I'm most likely just a distant memory. But it's not going to help bitching so I guess I just have to look forward to after high school, eh? Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Walls of Jericho-Why Father?
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Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
2:39 pm	I just found out I might not come home at all. I might have to go to a Semi-Independent Living place in Ann Arbor. It's kind of like a half-way house, and it's all because my mom drinks wine. That's fucked up. I dont know what I would do if that would happen. I'm just going insane in this place. I was supposed to get out July 4th but now I dont know when the hell I'm getting out. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: None
1Didnt even know him -x- Wrecked him?
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
1:40 pm	Right now Im in a placement and I dont know when Im coming home. Ive been here for two months and Im dying. Im supposed to go home in July, but they might not let me come back. Im so homesick and I just miss everyone. Current Mood: apathetic
8Didnt even know hims -x- Wrecked him?
Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
9:17 am	Shits been looking up for me latelty, I guess. I've been passing my drug tests and all that stuff, just doing what I'm supposed to do with my probation. The only thing thats really gone wrong is that my mom saw that I had money one day and accused me of dealing drugs, but she can't prove anything so it's all good. I still miss hanging out with old friends, but I've really got over it. I just don't give a shit anymore and I have to say I feel a lot better. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Norma Jean- Scientifiction
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
2:15 pm	My court date happened and obviously I didn't get sent there. I'm on something thats kind of like probation, but a little bit worse. I have a case worker and they monitor everything I do and if I do one thing wrong, I'll have to go to that home. I have to go to school everyday, on time, every minute of every hour, weekly drug tests, I have to cut my hair, and I can't get in any trouble. Plus I have a strict 11 curfew each night, including weekends. My parents are helping them with everything, writing down everything I do that resembles wrong because I'm pretty sure they are dissapointed at the judges decision, especially my dad. Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: The people in my homeroom.
5Didnt even know hims -x- Wrecked him?
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
12:28 pm	Well as of right now I'm completly miserable. I spoke with my attorney yesterday and she doesn't know whats going to happen. My parents told her I'm a "drug dealer" and that I'm destructive and that It's peaceful without me. What might happen is I might get sent to a group home, or a long term metnal/rehab place until I'm 18. This could be my last day, and I really don't think anyone gives a fuck. I don't want to leave Allen Park, I want to finish my high school life here and go on to do whatever I'm going to do. But tommorow my fate might be sealed to live in a group home in the boonies until I'm 18. Fuck. I'd much rather die than go to that shit, and thats exactly whats going to happen. Someone should call me today, on account that the date is tommorow. Urgh... Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Inked In Blood- The Sonnets of our Lives
3Didnt even know hims -x- Wrecked him?
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
11:19 am	Someone definetly needs to call me or something. My court date is Thursday and there is a possibility that I have to go to a group home until I'm 18. So if anyone wants to hang out before that happy day, leave me a comment. or call Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: Victors class
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Monday, December 12th, 2005
11:54 am	http://www.savetookie.org/ A new thing that people have been talking about is this website. Tookie Williams is the founder of the L.A. crypts. He was arrested and put on death row for the murder of four people and has been there since around the 70's. Since then, he has written a couple of childrens books and has spoken out against violence. I think this is definetly the most ridicoulously funny thing I've ever seen. There's an organization to try and stop the execution of Tookie Williams. There motto is "Arnold do the right thing for the children" Here's a picture of him. Tookie has won a Nole Peace Prize plus many Literary awards for his children books that speak out against gang violence. I <3 Tookie Current Mood: HAHA Current Music: None
1Didnt even know him -x- Wrecked him?
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
10:56 am	This past couple of days have been real shitty. I need to get a job and I just keep putting off going to look for one longer and longer, making more and more excuses why I don't. I've decided to start going to my first hour again because my mom is starting to talk about kicking me out of the house again. Right now I'm sittting here listening to someone complain to the teacher about how its to hard for them to wrtie a fucking paragraph. People are fucking dumb in this school, I can't stand it. I used to get offened when people called Riley "the retard school" but now I see why everyone says that. Most of the kids here are fucking half-retarded. I popped a few Ritalin this morning and I feel like typing a lot, but I have nothing to write about. Damnit Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Evergreen Terrace-No Donnie, These Men Are Nihilist
3Didnt even know hims -x- Wrecked him?
Saturday, November 5th, 2005
10:39 am	Derek, the hyper intelligent lover beast. Current Mood: weird Current Music: Calico System-They Live
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
4:59 pm	God I hate everything. Its only 5 o clock and I know what I'm doing tonight: sitting here listening to stupid music and feeling sorry for myself! Happy Halloween! Current Mood: morose Current Music: DeadtoFall- Like A Bullet
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12:48 pm	Well todays Halloween and I don't know what the hell I'm going to do. I'll probably end up sitting in Dakotas basement, playing The Warriors, but I don't know. Maybe I'll decide to scrounge together 30 dollars and eat some mushrooms and have an exciting adventure, just like last year. Yeah that sounds good. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Horse the Band-Birdo
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Thursday, October 27th, 2005
1:47 pm	Well its been a long time since I updated and not much has been going on. Today a child molester in a trench coat took a picture of me and then came to my school and took picutres of everyones cars. I need to hang out with someone. Comment Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Nothing
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